Being me, MLC is a strange thing. I have lost about a year of my life while in MLC. Just don't remember. Its a land of total confusion. Braveheart is right that it is pure selfishness, but for true MLC'ers its just a survival mechanism.
Now with that stated above what about you?
This is an opportunity to grow, to thrive as a whole individual. to become strong internally. There are gifts we receive along the way that don't look like gifts.
You are right about the train, it is driverless. It may crash someday, it may not. Do you still want to be standing looking at it 1 year from now? 2 years from now?
If I had my choice, I would still prefer to be married to my exW. but.....our choices are not always in conjuntion with the others choices. That being said there is life past all this. Your life!! and a darn good one.
