To be totally honest, I think I was in the very early days of starting to detach myself when H dropped the bomb.
H did take up a lot of my thoughts, as usual today but I will get there.
I think that is a place I was as well, so IC is helping me to go down the road of "do I want him back because I truly love him" or "Is it the shock, fear and sadness of the situation" Right now, I am at love, because I am okay by myself. I miss the emotional connection the most.
Remember to make a little space where only thoughts of you and kids are. I mentally shove H out when he intrudes. When it becomes bad, bad, I run. I hate running, so you can see the reinforcement behaviour I am working on here lmao.
You are not a bad Mum and don't you dare even think of asking him that question again
