The green green grass of home

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks, Subguy, Ruby and tumbling. Today was not as good as yesterday but not as bad as the day before. I hear you on the co-dependency, Subguy. I really don't know how to get past it but I will not be coming back "here" once I do.

LOL, You actually made me giggle with the call centre thing, Ruby. So true. Yes I know it was about me, not the shoes or haircut. His hair was by no means long and untidy, Just very long for his usual hair style (Which I don't think S even wants any more but likes it the same as his Dads when he is around him) I actually sent him a text a few hours later and asked if he thought I was a bad Mum.
He said no, I know you do that best you can. Patronising bastard.

Good idea, Tumbling. I actually have photo quotes saved on my phone and sticky note pad ones on my PC desktop picture.

There's nothing much to say about today. I dropped my children off at school and went to work.
Well actually I did play the wii. That was something I think contributed to BD. A few days before H was out at the pub till late, I was playing when he got home and I think he got upset and angry that I didn't turn my game off and spend time with his right away.
Honestly, I was starting to get to a point where, I just though, stuff it. Why should I drop everything as soon as he gets home, when he has been out at the pub half the night.

To be totally honest, I think I was in the very early days of starting to detach myself when H dropped the bomb.

H did take up a lot of my thoughts, as usual today but I will get there.