Haha you cracked me up a few times there! I'm glad you learned how to bake cookies!!!
OK OK OK, I have to admit that they're already premixed, I'm literally only throwing them on a cookie sheet and baking them, LOL! But they taste good and give the house that homey smell just the same
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I plan on doing the christmas decorating reguardless of where I'm at in my R.
Excellent, do it for yourself and your kids but I'm willing to bet W is going to feel some pangs of regret when she sees the house all done up and realizes it's not her home anymore.
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Last night I literally had to drag myself out to watch the duck game at my sisters.
Good job, you're on the right track! Just keep doing it, it gets easier each time.
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I'm still trying to grasp how people can get to a point where they are ok with or without there spouse, I feel like missing my W is what helps me continue to fight for my M.
I'm not fighting for the M anymore. I started out furiously DB'ing because I wanted my M fixed (NOW! RIGHT NOW!!!) But somewhere along the line the 180's that I was doing for my M became 180's for me, and then not even 180's but just part of the new me. And I came to the realization that any form of fighting for the M is counterproductive. The whole idea of GAL, PMA, DB, etc. is to QUIT fighting and give W time and space to sort through her thoughts. I think you have to get to that point before you can say you've really and truly detached. Now when I see W I don't feel the pain and longing, I just see a familiar face. I can talk to her as if she's a neighbor. Would I reconcile with her? Yes, that's why I'm not dating. But I'm not going to wait forever, I'm prepared to move on, I just don't know when yet. For now I choose to stand. But I'm in control of my life, I will stand until I choose not to.
