Tumbling tears are okay. Don't beat your self up over it. Natural reaction. If you didn't grieve I would be more concerned. So are you trying to check with H to see if it is okay? Because you just said it. It's NOT dropping the rope.
It's not GAL, it's not letting go, and it's not being the best you IF you are asking his permission to do ANYTHING!! You see what I am saying? So you know what you need to do. I read on here the other day - "Hope is not a plan" Bam. It's not and that hit me like a ton of bricks.
If you are thinking you need to move on then do so. Do this for you. Not him. Trust me.
My S14 and I had a convo in the car today. He says Mama - Dad can't resist you - when you are you. Hmmmm. That's powerful. Yes, people change but at our core the same attributes that attracted him to you haven't changed. Let them out! Be YOU!
Although not for him but for YOU. Be true to yourself. If that means dropping the rope then drop it. If you need to change the phone number or block calls. Block texting, whatever, you need to do to get over the hump then do so.
This isn't about him anymore. Never was. Or never should have been. This is ALL about you! Or at least that was always my take on what DB was all about. You know what I mean- I don't mean in a selfish way.
