hrm, I am so sorry you are having a very down and frustrating day today. You've got a lot of things going on that may be making you feel the way you are: 1)your back; 2)Christmas invitation for his work; and 3)the birth of the child. On a good day, the mlcer can bring you down, but when you have a number of other variables in the mix, I can understand the way that you are feeling. What I suggest is to pamper yourself. Light some candles, put on some nice music and take a nice, hot bubblebath and then relax.
hrm, you have to have faith that you will have a child one day. You would make a great mother and God is very aware that you want to share your life w/a child. Stay positive!
As for the Christmas party invitation, time will tell. He may fool us all and not go. Now, that would be a first!
Please take care of yourself. I do think you've got a lot going on in your life and w/the holidays approaching, it makes life so much more stressful.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
