Tumbling- I hate that you had a bad day. Do you think you were asking H for hope when you sent that last text?
I personally think you need to go completely dark. For me I really sort of need that time to just be me. Get my focus back and not be concerned about H. You are right. There is nothing wrong with you. You did not choose this. You did not do this. Don't beat yourself up. I believe once you really work through your emotions what is right for you will be obvious. I never could separate my feelings so long as I still was having contact. Too many mixed signals. Fact is, you have to look at what they actually do and realistically say to yourself - things haven't changed for H and can I accept that? Or things have changed and this is what I want. Once you decide that you will be able to move forward again.
