Its been a while since I posted. And a lot has happened. My husband has now moved out of our home. He moved out this weekend. I do believe he is living with his girlfriend part time and part time at his parents house altho I am not sure. I was the one who asked him to leave, to take some time to see what he was missing. Maybe it was foolish of me but I could not stand the emotional torture anymore. I had to tell my daughter on my own that her daddy moved out. She said to me "mommy I know something is going on with you and daddy" so it left me no choice, I couldn't lie to her. Before he left for the past 3 weeks I was pretty much in the dark. I couldn't even speak. When I tried it led to crying and breakdowns. I love him and miss him very much and my daughter is heart broken. He told me he loved me but I don't know what that means anymore. He's scared I will have another mid life crisis but I know I won't but I can't prove that to him. He told one of his close friends who has been through this (and made it through) that he feels very guilty about what is going on and is also heartbroken himself. My words don't do anything. He left without telling me or his daughter so I don't know where this is going especially in regard to his time with his daughter. I'm hoping that the physical separation will help heal me emotionally and also give him time to see what he is missing and where he truly belongs. I know he is in his own mid life crisis now. I've never made contact with the girlfriend as much as I would like to. I just don't know what to do at this point. I don't know how to rebuild his trust in trust me but also move on for myself and my daughter at the same time. I don't know how to be "nice" to him when he has hurt me and our daughter so much. I do not want to stop fighting for my family ever but i also don't want my daughter to be so hurt and confused by allowing him access to her whenever he feels an uge to be a parent. His mother said to me she thinks he's in a mode of "well she did it so now I'm gonna" and I should give him a certain period of time to "snap out of it". Which I am willing to do I just don't know what I'm supposed to do while "waiting". If I GAL by going out with my friends then it looks like I'm "acting single" again and that I don't love him anymore and that I don't want to reconcile. But if I just keep muddling around my house and being sorry for myself, I will never be the person he fell in love with. Help.
