Hi Tumbling, I hope that you are feeling a little better. I am sorry you are feeling these emotions (((( ))))
I agree. Leave H to be for awhile. Use the time for yourself. Don't be so hard on yourself Tumbling. Yes, we do have to own up to our own shortcomings and contributions to the demise of our M's, but it can't all be on one person. Maybe work on forgiving yourself first.
Am here for you...sitting on the blanket. Lets talk about other things. :-)
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home