Today W is wearing her rings again. I just took advantage of the nice weather and got the Christmas lights put on the house. We went grocery shopping earlier. W was friendly. It was a good time. She kissed me on the cheek and one point when I was being silly.
Just had a chat with W... She brought it up. She said she feels like she's just swimming in thick water. She has no pull in any direction towards anything.
She said she doesn't have a pull to quit her job and find another high paying job. She wants to quit, but doesn't feel like doing anything.
She also said she has no pull to get a divorce. No pull to move out of the house. She said we have a lot of good/fun days, but it doesn't pull her any close to us.
She said she feels like she's just floating. She asked I I thought if it was depression. I said it could be. She then said she also has no pull to go see someone about it.
She asked if I ever thought about dating other people. I said no. She said, "I wouldn't blame you if you did. This has to be hard for you... I mean with me not having sex with you. You can be honest with me if you've thought about it."
If she's really feeling no pull-be her gravity.
How did you answer the question about dating other people?
I guess I try to be her gravity by continuing to DB and be a strong person?
I simply told her I hadn't thought about dating others.
One other thing- she tried to apologize for saying the "good days" don't pull her closer. She said that was a hurtful thing to say and she was sorry. I told her, "you have nothing to be sorry for. You were honest and I appreciate that. I want you to feel like you can talk to me about anything." she nodded and smiled.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done
