Today W is wearing her rings again. I just took advantage of the nice weather and got the Christmas lights put on the house. We went grocery shopping earlier. W was friendly. It was a good time. She kissed me on the cheek and one point when I was being silly.
Just had a chat with W... She brought it up. She said she feels like she's just swimming in thick water. She has no pull in any direction towards anything.
She said she doesn't have a pull to quit her job and find another high paying job. She wants to quit, but doesn't feel like doing anything.
She also said she has no pull to get a divorce. No pull to move out of the house. She said we have a lot of good/fun days, but it doesn't pull her any close to us.
She said she feels like she's just floating. She asked I I thought if it was depression. I said it could be. She then said she also has no pull to go see someone about it.
She asked if I ever thought about dating other people. I said no. She said, "I wouldn't blame you if you did. This has to be hard for you... I mean with me not having sex with you. You can be honest with me if you've thought about it."
If she's really feeling no pull-be her gravity.
How did you answer the question about dating other people?
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
