I had a good time tonight. The band my brother is in played great. Now I'm home and when i was at the place my brother played at, i kept noticing all of the womens wedding rings. It created thoughts of my W before she threw her ring at me 2 years ago.
I started to wander with my thoughts, wondering if she was flagrantly still wearing her ring when she was out with OM's. That's enough sulking.
So, i paid more attention to other things going on to get my mind off of her.
All in all, i am very glad i had a good night of fun. I did feel alone but my s-i-l kept me in her company and that helped out alot.
Tomorrow morning i will pick up my son and take him to Church like we usually do on Sundays.
I need to get back out in public more to feel more comfortable in my own skin. It's been a real long time since i was even in a bar. Everyone seemed to be having a real fun time there, especially the women, who were dancing and swaying to the music. Yes, i thought of how my W would act at a bar too, having such an exciting fun time, but that doesn't sting as much as it used to.
I have to continually remember that the woman i married is not the same person anymore.
I hope this doesn't sound too pathetic, but i want to record my honest feelings. Nothing happened that made me sad enough to get misty about, but i did feel angry at her past actions.
