Dealing with the reality of separation

[PeteWyo]

So I went out golfing Friday and missed W's call. It was really nice to hear her voice even over voice mail. I text her that I was golfing and that is why I missed her call. Nothing back. I went out with friends tonight and heard more about how I was painted out to be a monster and how OM's fiancee was a monster too. Remember we were all friends and the two of them got together. And all of my friends keep telling me that they always believed W and OM and never gave us a fair shake, and now that they know us, it all makes more sense. This is very bittersweet to me. I don't care about he said she said BS. I feel like they are trying to be on my side and I don't care about that. I care more about the fact that my W told everyone but me that she was unhappy. Everyone is so confused because she would tell them how awful everything was and then we would be kissing and holding hands when they saw us. That is because I thought everything was good! I had no reason to believe otherwise! There is a lot more I found out but I am still processing it at this point. My whole marriage was a lie at this point. She never told me any of this, not even when she told me she wanted a divorce. She still never told me why, and that doesn't sit right with me. Why am I finding out about this from our friends 3 months after she left me? I am so confused...