Thanks as always, Leo. I appreciate your thoughts and opinions.
I tried to GAL this afternoon and get a massage. It's not something I normally do, but I can feel the tension throughout my entire body. I figured it would be worth a shot to see if it helps. Unfortunately, the place was booked. I spent some time just sitting in the car in the parking lot looking at funny pictures online. W was watching S and it was a needed break for me.
Unfortunately her comments earlier have been ringing through my head all evening. I'm laying in bed now with her next to me sleeping. She held my hand for a minute before rolling over.
I've been thinking more about detachment and GAL. I think I'm afraid. I'm afraid that if I don't spend time around her, I can't show her the strong person I am. We have so little downtime together after S goes to bed that I don't want to leave the house... I want to be around her since we seem to be getting along prettry well. It's also hard because she seems to go out about every other night. That means we don't have any real time together for 4 or 5 days.
I'm also afraid that detaching could go to far and that I'd stop loving her.... But I guess that's the risk.
Tomorrow is a new day.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done