The green green grass of home

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks, Grateful, Eyes and CV. (I would really love some honest answers to a few questions, please.)

The beach is about 45 mins away, so it does cost for petrol. I also am not too sure how to get there. I know roughly but H always used to drive. The kids have bikes but I don't. I just don't know any more.

My H doesn't sound confused at all. He is making me feel guilty for everything. Saying he couldn't change jobs because I didn't have full time work. We couldn't move out because I didn't have a full time job. I should have had my Mum dropping me kids off to school and picking them up so I could work full time.

I used to make him feel bad because I used to get angry that he was going away with the boys, every two months. Well this was years ago and at that point we had not been on a family holiday for ages. Would you be upset if your spouse has a holiday with their mates, every two months? and was not having family holidays? Seriously, was that so awful of me? I'd like truthful answers please.

I got angry because he had been telling the kids he will take them out on the boat. Well he had a day off work and we were supposed to spend it together, last minute he decided to take his friends out on the boat. Yes, I got angry because I thought he should have taken the kids out and his friends next time. It ended up being over a month before the kids got to go because of the weather and his work. They instead watched him drive off with the boat.
Was I really being that selfish and terrible for getting angry about that?

Was I really such a terrible selfish person? I am feeling so bad and so guilty, like it was all my fault.

SO what your all suggesting is the LRT?