The crack in my separated life...

[littleGTO]

"I hate this life that I lead now..and that makes me sad that Im not the same person, because he isnt the same person."

I TOTALLY understand & feel too that this sitch has made me into someone I am NOT. ANd, I don't like it at all. I feel weak, desperate, sad, lonely and powerless. Plus, I feel like a doormat at times.

"I think Im pretty wonderful. Im an amazing mom, I am an amazing teacher, friend and person. I make people smile and laugh. I am struggling, but still can wear a smile. I think that he was a fool to leave me and our family...and maybe, just maybe..one day he will see all that he lost...because Im pretty darn special. I hope that he still thinks of me sometimes....we sure did have a great thing."

I wish I had these convictions right now! Good for you!

"Another one of the wonderful things he gave up to be with OW and on his own...."

I find it amazing how much my H seems so willing to give up to pursue this NEW life --his home, his wife, his kids, my family, his family (to some degree), and all for SELFISHNESS!

What happens when they wake up one day and realize and the hurt and pain they've caused and how many doors they've closed, for what...? a happier life w OW? a happier life reliving their early twenties? I just don't get it.