Just wanted to let you now that I'm following your sitch and I see a lot of similarities between your W and my H. So I know how hard this is for you and I feel for you.
Thank you for this post - the detail gives so much insight into what our WASs are feeling and thinking.
I'm struggling to do much more than read other people's posts at the moment. Not sure why, but after 15 months of this, I'm at a bit of a loss as to how to provide much advice or helpful suggestions to others. Obviously not a good DB-er!
All I can offer is understanding and support, so please know that I understand what you are going through and I feel for you.
BTW - you sound very strong and capable in all of your posts - you are definitely a role model for how to endure the unendurable!