That's it? That's all you have in you? Even though you were forgiven by God, and even though the bible says that we have to forgive others......you can't forgive your wife? Yes, you do have an over-sized "ego"......but the word that God used in the bible is not ego.....it's pride!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
