Special days and holidays are going to suck. I am expecting myself to pull back and ready myself to control my emotions. I was just thinking this morning that, this might be her last birthday I spend with her (17 birthday's), then i think about the rest of the holidays and special days, how it might be the last (well last as in together, i know with kids it wont' be the "Last")
I guess what I am saying is, since this will technically be "Last" time, i may as well make it memorable....
So for her Birthday i did the following 1. Got her a bunch of stuff for her new apartment (done) 2. Sent 34 Ballons to her work place!!!! (done) 3. Took her on a great date (done) 4. Made a scrapbook of an important event she just did recently (i think it was awesome) (done)
With no expectations of her even saying "thanks" and for every comment i get about "Gee i wish my H was like this", I already gotten a few.....It makes me smile that somebody is going to appreciate me in the future.
I love taking the negative situations and making it positive for myself but at the same time show my changes and bring out the old loving me (single me, who would of done alot of these things anyway).
