Oi, mine is special...

[Big Bruce]

Aie aie....
I showed up, she was sulky, I played with the toddler, she was still sulky. We went to grab pizza, she didn't sit in front of me, didn't respond so much to my trying to make small talk. Her parents were in the room, but not at our table.
At the end, I asked if could talk, she said no. (Although she said she wanted to talk).

We went to our homes. One hour after I called and asked if it was a better time to talk, she said no. So I said I was informing her that I had an appointment tomorrow with the lawyer and that I would be asking for access to the toddler, because as a father I wanted to raise my son. She respond it was my problem if I had an appointment with a lawyer, and that I did what I want with my time (sic!).

Now, I am left wondering if her previous message was a trap, if she wanted to talk about our M but got cold feet, if she wants to see if I'm bluffing, if she has hardened even worse than before, etc...

Truth is, I do have an appointment tomorrow with the lawyer, and I will ask for custody of my son.
Whether she softens or becomes mad is not the point at the moment.
She had the opportunity to reverse that tonight, and she refused it.

I have to admit that I am disappointed big time, but not as bad as I would have been a couple of months ago. I know that life will go on, with or without her, that I'll have my son with me, and that I will be happy no matter what. Yes I am maimed, yes half of me is missing, but this other half has to carry on, I don't have a choice.