I bet this feeling is very common among people on the board. I also thought my H was always fine bc he never communicated anything negative to me. But he wasn't.
But you know what? You didn't know at the time. You did what you thought you needed to do. And your H is the one who went outside the M, not you. He also played (plays a part.) So don't be so hard on yourself. I tend to be really hard on myself too.
((((((Busting))))))
Me as well and I think that this is what causes the occasional outburst of anger I feel when I'm alone with my thoughts. It's like I'm taking all the blame for what has happened yet, I'm the one here fighting this alone and going through all this pain which, quite frankly has got to be at least as bad as what she says I put her through. At least, I never did it intentionally whereas, she knows that what she is doing is destroying our family and hurting both me and D8.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
