You are also not detached from her and its something you must do NOW! Go live your life for you and for your S it will make you feel better. Your inability to GGAL for YOU is holding you back. It's great you are doing things with your S but its time you do for YOU. Don't waste your life waiting on her.
M 44 W 43 S 23 S 15 INILWY 9/11 Divorce Mediation started 3/13 June 30 the day W is moving out