thank you all for visiting, it warms my heart to know there are those out there that are thinking about me...
a very brief update, and then i would like some opinions on something...
my niece is doing much better. she is still in some pain. her incision isn't healing like it should (which we all knew would be a problem) but we are watching it closely
it is tiring taking care of 7 children everyday. in california they have year round school, and after this friday it is what they call "off track" which means they are off for a month. now what am i going to do with 7 children everyday??? pray for me!
ok, as most of you remember, i married my husband twice. the first time it was only 2 months after his divorce and in total secret. i lived with him for almost 10 months with absolutely NO ONE knowing we were married. that was in april of 94
we married in full view of everyone in feb of 95 -
we have since celebrated our anniversary in february, instead of april because that is the date everyone knew
yesterday, the 24th, was our anniversary
i struggled with whether or not to send him a card, virtual, so i ended up doing something very generic, and in it i wrote the following:
Quote: good morning,
i had a difficult time deciding whether or not to send you an anniversary card today. the difficulty came not from knowing whether or not i love you, because i do deeply, but whether or not this is really our anniversary.
with all the things that have happened over the last year or so, and all the things that i have thought about our beginnings, i believe that our anniversary should be celebrated the day we married, on april 16, 1994
i didn’t want this day to go un-noticed tho, because it is important to me in that this was the day we finally announced to the world that we were together
so i send this to you, in the spirit in which it was intended - as a note to you that i remember the good things, and please know again that i love you very much.
your wife
suprisingly, he wrote me back, using the same e-card but with the following written:
Quote: This was very thoughtful. I can't really say how I feel about it all, except thank you for your patience and consideration. I do care deeply for you. And I do love my daughter with every ounce of my grain.
I hope your day goes better than yesterday, and I pray you don't get sick!!! And, yes, as I get more and more tired around here, I do appreciate what you accomplish during the day!
THIS IS WHAT I NEED OPINIONS ON
i am having a very hard time with what he wrote me. maybe it's because i am in the forest and i have no one in the helicopter right now guiding me, but this sounds horrible "I can't really say how I feel about it all"
why do i take offense at that? why does that one statement stand out to me like a sore thumb and i feel like total crap because of it
help me please see what his response really means, if you can...
