''Simply stay strong in your words and actions... Tell him you WON'T tolerate him treating you this way anymore.
Put your foot down and keep it there.
You deserve more... and only you can get what you deserve''.
I need to read this often and remember this almost all through out my day in order not to slip up, when does this become habit?
I have been keeping to myself these few days, going off into other rooms and initiating less conversation with H. This morning he asked me to sit through a doc. on tv, I declined, after a while he was watching tv through the kitchen while doing dishes. He hasn't done that is several months, when normally it was a constant morning chore for him since we married.
He expressed that I have lost weight, dress better (ditched the mom look) also saying I look better w/out my glasses. THe funny thing is it sounded as if he was taking credit, saying that this sitch has done something good for me. (slap )
BOy, I can't win with this man...he went as far as saying I can't win. He just gets louder, taller, meaner, colder, and now he's quiet it comes out condescending, narcissistic, proud!
I'm 45 he's approaching 53yrs, I look (people tell me) much younger, he looks much older, so he went as far as saying I could go find someone my age or younger, I have a lot to offer a ''good'' man. Maybe I should drive to Chicago and just cruise down Michigan Ave. until Mr. Hansom jumps into the car, yea!
I know it's part of the script, but my goodness how far out is this MOther Ship they get their thoughts from?
Anyway, I am going try my best to be strong, stay back from him, and continue forward. I feel as if I say this every other day, I know I do make progress as well as backslide so I'm going to see that as a good start.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
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