You are pressuring her and coming off as controlling. Unfortunately you have to go through with the D process but it doesn't mean the two of you are done as long as you make the changes to be a better person. Real changes for you. Become the person only a fool would have left. Start now. No more excuses.
M 44 W 43 S 23 S 15 INILWY 9/11 Divorce Mediation started 3/13 June 30 the day W is moving out