today has been really really rough. last night me and the wife stayed in the same house, when she got home from her grandma's she came upstairs into the bonus room and hung out with the kids and I. she started stating that over the past week she feels like I have given up because I haven't been contacting or talking to her at all except for the kids matters. she said she feels like since I have officially given up and we have both giving up we should just get a divorce. I stated to her that I have not given up I am just simply giving her the space that she has been asking for for 2 months. then she started stating that she doesn't think we can never get back to where we once were. and stated that she wants me to move out if I don't have a job by Thanksgiving. she said that over the past week she feels like I am trying to control the situation, which I don't get because I have been doing that LRT technique, I don't see how that is controlling anything if anything its giving her control in a sense. anyways I helped her make our bed and she said I can sleep in the bed as long as I don't touch her(with a smile, she wasn't being rude). I ended up sleeping in the bed, but I woke up and just felt extremely depressed. I feel like my life is going down the drain. I feel like I have been detaching extremely well but it's somehow back firing with the fact that she said I'm giving up. anyways thanks for reading or listening I guess.
M: 25 W:23 M: 4 years T: 10 years S:5 S1 BD: 8/20/12 Sep: 11/12
