After I started realizing the issues that were mine in the M, I realize that I feel so selfish around him now. Because in the past I made everything about me...my feelings, my pain my fear ..my spew my spew.
And it was because he was/is such a master at feeling concealment, I stopped looking at his feelings, fears, etc. I expected him to take care of mine, because i figured he was fine.
he was not fine. And i was selfish to let myself think that. So NOW, today, I do feel selfish if I want something from him. I did not consider his feelings for a long time. As much as it hurts to admit that, as much as it embarrasses me. Its true.
Bingo..you and I are exactly in the same place. Scootch over hon, got room for one more on the blanket?
