After I started realizing the issues that were mine in the M, I realize that I feel so selfish around him now. Because in the past I made everything about me...my feelings, my pain my fear ..my spew my spew.
And it was because he was/is such a master at feeling concealment, I stopped looking at his feelings, fears, etc. I expected him to take care of mine, because i figured he was fine.
he was not fine. And i was selfish to let myself think that. So NOW, today, I do feel selfish if I want something from him. I did not consider his feelings for a long time. As much as it hurts to admit that, as much as it embarrasses me. Its true.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
