Moving the blanket away from the castle

[keep_going]

Busting,

Thanks for sharing with us... I could have written a lot of what you said as well.

It's hard to act naturally when you can clearly see that your H is consciously pushing you out and acting distant. When he doesn't want to sit next to you or hug you or touch you. When he never asks about you or your life or shows any interests in others' needs...

I like you act as if, but I have a tough time when this happens. I really think that my H probably isn't even aware if I notice he doesn't touch me or listen to me, because he is is so used to acting like that towards me. Does that make sense?

I know the feeling of looking at H and wondering how we got here and who is this man sitting next to me who acts like a distant relative...

But you are doing great. You are calm about it, you reflect on it, observe your feelings, let them pass and continue on. And I admire you for it...

((((busting)))))