and I realize, and I know this his still a work in progress. I don't feel my full self with him yet. It has gotten better since I have been DBing...my self esteem has picked up, etc. But I realize I still am doing a lot of acting as if around him. And its because he does not welcome my presence around him. He so actively pushes me out. He makes sure I am not a part of his private life whatsoever.
No worries, I am not going back to banging on the castle door anymore.
Just observations.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
