Thanks Busting and Tori. I can say I've learned a few things the past few days since I've been here last. Good and Bad. So we've been friendly, actually friendly with more physical contact (hugging nothing more). We've had 2 R convo's the past few days. The first night, I was tempted to leave the house. Last night, I packed my bags, went to give the kids a one last kiss (they were in bed), and about to leave. Each of the nights, W said she understood if left, but asked me to stay. She definitely pursued me as I withdrew. I've let my boundaries down, I've been impatient, I've allowed my ego to get in the way, I've pushed too much. I feel really sad at this moment, even though W and I have been able to patch up the little disagreements we've had. We have a "friend date" tonight to go over Christmas list stuff for the kids and watch one of our fav shows. I blew it last night. I did reach out via email earlier, and W responded, "I'd love too, I'm glad you asked." W even has an eye out for a possible job for me. I'm living in a world of ocnfusion and mixed emotions.
Oh have to add this too, during the first convo we had, I teared up. I teared up thinking of all you wonderful people.
Tips / advice for me to get better for me (in addition to the keep doing the same)? 8)
