My H is trying to make me feel guilty because I don't want to use a mediator. He wants to make the decisions on what's fair for everyone. HELLO!!!???!!! He hasn't made a good decision on what's best for me and our Ds for months!! There is no way in heck that he is going to be in charge.
He wants to know who I'm using for a lawyer. I haven't answered that question. Don't plan on any time soon.
You will find that you have strength and courage you never thought you had. Don't give in to your H. Stand strong. Cry later where he can't hear or see you. Best wishes :o)