I know how you feel SG because my LL is physical touch too. The only thing I can tell you is it does get easier as time goes by. I don't remember but are you taking any AD? I know for me they have really helped. I be a wreck right now with how my W is just blowing me off.
M 44 W 43 S 23 S 15 INILWY 9/11 Divorce Mediation started 3/13 June 30 the day W is moving out