He's Just Not That Into You

[mamabird]

This morning I feel like we're making the tiniest bit of progress. H came in to talk to me when he got home, told me about his night. Later on I spent a little time with him giving him his back rub, but he seemed more receptive in a way. Hard to describe, but a subtle change in him, like he was finally starting to let go. Instead of just being "frigid" he was letting me know that he was enjoying it by making little sounds of contentment, which makes me think he's finally allowing himself to enjoy the experience.

He did say in MC that he felt he was turning a lot of his anger inward. He definitely has this self-punishing thing that he does. So maybe, hopefully, he's ready to start letting go of that. I didn't think our ML the other night was any momentous deal, but he had definitely been holding back in that area, and he knew it was something that I wanted to keep going, so it either signifies him letting go of some of his resistance, or he was just horny. Maybe a combination of both. ;-)

He left for his business trip early this am. I went outside to say goodbye and we had a nice hug - first time in a while for that.