3 Years after D-Day, part 2. Separated 9 Months.

[Am I Too Late]

AlkalineThouhts, once again thank you for lending your outsiders perspective to my meanderings. My thoughts are not Absorbed with thinking about my W, but i still have periods that she gets in my head, but it's not as pervasive as it used to be, if you get my drift.

My posts are also a frame of reference for me to look back at to detect where i am at, compared to where i was previously.

Last night, i felt like i had an epiphany of sorts. I was Done being pizzed off at her. But, reading her last e-mail allowed me to see the hypocrisy of her comment about how much she misses S-9. Well, she wouldn't have to miss him at all if she would have put in any effort at all if she would have thought of others who loved her instead of herself and would have chosen to partake in family events to learn to enjoy being a wife and a mother again.

Here is her e-mail.
Ok try calling me when u have chance. I very likely will be asleep. If I don't answer please tell eddie mama had fun sat and was so happy to be there with him and that I love and miss him very much. Please tell him that.

That was after i e-mailed her that he was at his Cub Scout Den meeting.

I did respond to her this morning, just to let her know that we got back too late to call and that i already had told her what she requested, prior to her asking me to do so.

I wanted to add to that, but felt any other words would wind up trying to guilt trip her in a subversive manner that might also make her feel bad.

We had to depend on a ride from someone else due to my vehicles both being broke down, so we were on someone else's time frame.

When i did talk to my son on Sunday, he said, Dad, why are you talking about her again. I do try to enforce with him that he is loved by Both of his parents. I'm not sure if his comment was about what he has stated several times before, That he doesn't miss ma-ma that much because she was never around that much and never did anything with us, OR if i try to tell him too often that his ma-ma still loves him.

Ed