okay- i'm nuts and paranoid. anyway- was thinking maybe this is "it" forever- i don't like this "it". do you think we either have to get lost or resign ourselves to forever being in the position of being a fond old dog- and tahtis that? or what?
I get it that things will never be the way they were. i just don't know what they could be instead - now. or if they must alwasy be something bad now.?/ this ow stuff is the real soul-sucker. i want out - i feel trapped - but i don't just take the extra step of gnawing my leg off to get out of the trap.
what the???? oh well- now that i say that out loud- i make myself tired and depressed- so i'm shoving it to the back of my reality to be dealt with tomorrow - scarlett. so- how long do we do this before we do that? (or something different?) do you reckon-
i can't believe you know what you know adn have done "this" for (is it?) six years??/ i wonder if I could last that long- you have guts dearie. and stamina.
i'm outta here- that bear for sure - did work a bit on some wallpaper in a dollhouse i began about five years ago- oiy
fhave several here and there- one of these years alllll the projects will be done=- *('ll probably drop dead from lack of purpos.
