I understand about the supression of emotions, you were probably raised like I was that showing emotions is the sign of a wussy and you need to suck it up and be a "man". So we go through life cramming all that stuff way down deep inside and then it comes boiling out in the form of rage at the most inopportune moments. I've learned a lot about emotions and feelings since BD and have a lot of tools for addressing it now. Unfortunately in my case it seems to be too late to use it in my M. Sounds like it's not too late for you, good luck!
