Today is going to be a difficult day. I had to work late last night. I missed out on a lot of sleep. I'm the type of person that gets depressed easily if I don't get at least 7 hours. I just need to remind myself this is ONE day and tomorrow will be better.
It was hard leaving the house this morning. S and I were headed out the door and like always, W leans in and gives S a kiss as I'm holding him. For some stupid reason, every day I think maybe she'll give me a kiss. It never happens and my heart always drops. I wish I knew how to get rid of that thought. Rationally, I know she's not going to kiss me.
She also still makes a point to touch me in bed. She either cuddles or touches her feet to mine. This is the only physical contact we ever have. It's so hard for me since my main love language is physical touch... It leaves me feeling empty.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done