WHY IS it so important for me to know the truth behind all these Mea Culpa's? I can't stop thinking about it. I want to know the why he is apologetic now.

And, it really doesn't matter because he's not moving home anytime soon anyhow--but it bothers me. I guess I've been lied to so much and I'm done with it.

I wonder if she has found someone new? Maybe he's not getting the steady supply of grass anymore? Maybe this is why he seems more lucid?

Yesterday, he told me he's felt horrible this whole time. Tired of being the bad guy. Then, he went into this justification about why he was frustrated with me and how I screwed up in the marriage. Still, little responsibility...but FULL of SHAME. I have to admit, though, I do appreciate how hard it was to come over yesterday and face us all--together. He knew he was running the gauntlet. But, what happened that made him want to face it NOW? And, he said she keeps saying they are just friends? So, I asked...If she had said otherwise, would you guys be together? He said prob not.

Huh? And, Sat, he was telling D18 that he was still with her and he even considered introducing her to D18. WTH? On Sat, he was unwilling to give her up. Was this all to save face and make things seem better than they were? Or??? I'm confused. Going to try to focus on me.

It bugs me. But, I can hear Snodderly saying...let it go and focus on you and the girls.

Ugh.

Heather

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson