thank you kevin...i try to focus on the positives, it seems to help me a great deal
POSITIVES
1) when i mentioned yesterday that hubby had tried to call me "all morning" on saturday, i forgot to add that he completely forgot what he called for...well he called me on my way home from augusta yesterday to tell me he remembered...
i have this red blanket that i have had since i was 11 years old, something i always have with me no matter where i go, my own "security blanket" and he called to ask me how i was surviving without it since i didn't take it with me...
i thought that was a bit funny...
2) exwife and hubby had some words last night about visitation (boys have had band stuff to do this last scheduled visit and the one coming up) - they were on the phone for about 15 minutes, and he came back angry...
"more of the same" would have been for me to tell him how he should have handled her, but i just let him talk and validated everything he said. it seemed that he didn't wanna stop talking about it, so i just continued to listen
3) ok, marathon movie watching has begun again, we watched THREE movies yesterday!!!
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just journaling
will be taking off to california next week tuesday, actually i have to take a train to jacksonville and then the plane to sac
ugh...
i am facing LOTS of demons going to ca this time, it's getting into my dreams again
had a dream last night about ex-husband. he had called and asked if i wanted to have coffee with him, and i said sure, and so he told me to meet him at this little lake side restaurant...
i met him there but he said, oh this is not where we are going to have our coffee and he put me on this self rowing boat with him and we went thru this really scary amazon type river thing to this resort area that looked like it was in hawaii or something
when we got there - it was this fancy pancy place that everyone knew him by name and there was this HUGE pool and we sat there and drank coffee, then he tells me he owns the place
