Thanks for being here. I'm going through a rough patch today. I don't know if it's withdrawal or something else.
Something has been on my mind since yesterday. When W and I were riding across town, we came to the cultural centre near city hall and there, on a bigger-than-life sign was my W's name. It turns out she's opening for a big local act on Sunday.
I'm torn apart by my feelings. I wish I could be happy for her but selfishly, I'm upset because I guess I'm afraid she will make it on her own, be happy and not need me anymore because she'll see this new found happiness as something which happened because she left me.
The thing is, she had it coming. She is a really good singer and since she has left, she's been doing things which I'd been encouraging her to do for years. It just s_cks that we can't share this moment together.
It s_cks that I can't seem to find it in me to be happy for her.
It s_cks that I had to find out about it this way. She was so dismissive when I mentioned it and she was evasive when I asked her what time she was playing. I guess she doesn't want me there.
This is probably the reason for my mood.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
