The Lure of the Siren

[25yearsmlc]

I wish I could be consistently strong. Woke up this morning with W on my mind and a huge knot in my stomach.

Just so you know--I've felt that too, a sense of dread hsnging over me...

Worse to me, was waking up w/a good happy feeling- only to have it vanish, when I'd remember, "oh yeah, h is leaving..." SIGH...

Yes it's normal. But it still stings.



W sent a text at 2 am saying she wants to cancel immigration this morning, which might cause some problems for my visa. Even my D8 said last night that W was behaving like a teenager, sleeping on the floor and staying out til late with her friends and just doing what she wanted, when she wanted. I wish W could hear her D8 talk like that about her. What would she think? Probably that i put these idea in her head and blame me for it.

probably yes...OR it's your fault anyhow. Trust me on one thing Arsene, if guilt could get them home, my h would've rushed home. I'm pretty good at the guilt thing BUT even our d1, then 16, ASKED H TO STAY & she cried, & he loves her very much...& he left anyhow...

Sigh... I hate feeling this way. Got to get my PMA back.

YES--you do need a PMA, whatever it takes...you need a PMA, for several reasons you already know.