Journaling: Tonight I am not going to loose my cool, I'm going to remember that it's not worth the fight because my H is not the H I knew - right now!
I have been having a problem with flying off the handle these days, saying exactly what's on my mind. I am trying to be careful not to be argumentative, but to be tough in my stance.
I don't know - maybe I'm doing this all wrong! I just feel strong, like I don't want to take his sh!t and damit I'm going to let him know! I don't think I know how to be strong me, while staying quiet about what bugs me.
If I am to be myself, myself would not take his crap. His crap being his sitting around depressed all weekend, talking to ea, being a slob.
He married me because I was strong and now he can just do whatever and I cant show strength? I need to show it in GAL, that's strength to move on without him, do I want to show that? Yea, I think!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
