After a good run of positive days I have ran into a down one. My daughters b-day is tomorrow and I am longing to spend it as a family. These are the times, of time and space that are especially difficult.

A few weeks ago my w had mentioned that maybe we could do something as a family for d3 birthday, since then no mention of it. I would really like to ask her to do some family things but I know that I shouldn't. This is what she wants, life without me, so this is what she will have.

I had been thinking about dating, although after today, that thought is gone. It is replaced with a renewed dedication to this journey. I will affirm her when the sitch is right, and I will shut my mouth when it needs to be closed.


Me 37/W 32
S 5
D 4
ILYBNILWY 5/12
Sep 8/12
Starting to find myself 11/12 on