Is this why I need to detach, because her sensing me like this repels?
Yes. Your whole post smacks of codependency. People like being wanted, but they don't like being needed. When you say things like your W being like a drug to you, that's very unhealthy for you and very undesirable for your W. You need to detach and GAL to refocus yourself on you. You've defined yourself using her for far too long, time to spread your wings and fly on your own. Take it from me, I know because I could have written that exact same post a few months ago, LOL!
I've never actually used drugs...so maybe I shouldn't have said it that way. I was looking for language to express my grief. I do agree that I am in a very unhealthy state emotionally, whatever name it's called.
Me 46 W 43 S 21 D 18 S 17 M 22 yrs Discovered OM 9/10/12 W moved to sister's 9/15/12 W moved to OM 9/27/12 Tried to DB until 7/13 W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve. I counter filed 12/2/13.
