Snodderly~ Thank you for the birthday wishes!! My birthday is today btw. I'm feeling much better today, thankfully!! Yes, the fresh air hiking was nice... apparently didn't clear the head very well since we made that bad decision to hike in the dark! LOL
My friend and I had a lot of fun shopping, definitely out of our element though!! I'm definitely a country girl that's for sure! LOL I did get to go to the only store I really wanted to go to, which was Fredrick's of Hollywood, never been to one before, had a blast there, the sales clerk was awesome!!! The store was also on it's last day of 50% off of everything! What great luck for me! I did get some stuff for myself (which was difficult because they never make that stuff for women with big boobs, but I found some stuff, I know TMI, sorry), never hurts to look extra good parading around the house LOL, going with that whole "look like a fool for leaving", which he already would, so this is just a bonus. I did get what I got for me, NOT him though, so go me.
Soul Searching~I am trying really, really hard to be detached, I'm good mostly, but have some moments, getting out and doing things helps a lot!!! Also not reacting and just kinda being like that's his choice, whatever, helps too. Of course the day I yelled at him was also very therapeutic for me.
TVS~Thanks it was a blast!!
T~ Thank you for the man-spective (yes, I made a word up, I do that sometimes), I appreciate it. In the past H has showed concern by being annoyed/ displeased, so I looked at it as a good thing. I would think if he really didn't care he wouldn't have really reacted, but IDK. Anymore man-spective would be greatly appreciated!
Sunny~ Of course re-doing the kitchen before divorcing makes perfect sense.... if you're having a MLC.... lots of things make perfect sense that leave us in Normalville scratching our heads and saying...um, ok.... LOL
I love Kohl's, btw, I know that's really not relevant to anything, but you mentioned you went there so I thought I would throw that in, sorry strange mood today, probably too much cake!
I really loved what you said, "I BELIEVE THAT GOD IS WORKING - I don't care what it looks like, I don't care what it feels like - I believe that God is working in me, in my children and in my spouse. I am gonna keep pressing on and pressing through and outlast the devil - AMEN" When I read that yesterday it was just what I needed.
You are welcome, and thank you my friend.
updates~ Ok, this is one of those disclaimer moments, make sure you are sitting down before reading this.... ok, you've been warned....
This morning when I was getting ready to leave for work I picked up my phone and saw I had a missed call and a text from H!! The text read, "Happy Birthday. I hope you have a good day." I took a chance and called him back, he answered. He said nothing was wrong, he just wanted to call me and wish me a happy birthday, and hopes I have a good day. I thanked him and told him that was sweet of him and I appreciated it and hope he has a good day as well. He thanked me and said that was all he had wanted. I did also reply to the text just because he sounded so happy when I told him to have a good day too.
Tonight when he got home my dear friend was here. I told H we would be getting food from the local pizza shop after running to the store (to pick up an ice cream cake), I asked if he would like some pizza. He actually said yes and gave me $10. When we left my friend had forgotten her purse on the kitchen table so I ran back in the house to get it. I said sorry didn't mean to scare you L isn't used to carrying a purse yet and forgot it. He actually laughed and told me happy birthday again. I thanked him and gave him a hug. When we got back with the food he ate downstairs and watched tv down there so we could use the upstairs tv. He went to bed at 7:45.... perhaps the depression was knocking at his door, too much normal?? He actually spoke to my friend a couple of times again.... IDK, but living in the moment it was a nice birthday, all round. My co-workers remembered and one of them made me a carrot cake (wow, I've had a LOT of cake today!!), family and friends were texting me birthday wishes all day, it was nice, and I was surprised by a couple of people remembering it was today.
I don't know what tomorrow holds but today was good. Even in this crazy mess I am so blessed.
I'm feeling much better today, thankfully!! Yes, the fresh air hiking was nice... apparently didn't clear the head very well since we made that bad decision to hike in the dark! LOL 
I did get what I got for me, NOT him though, so go me. 
