He apologized again. This time he said he loved me. Says he's lonely and depressed and has no home. Told me he has slept in his car some nights. Told me they had sex in August, twice? But, are just friends. Said she only wants to be friends and so does he. I asked if he was dumped. He said No.
I asked why now? If this has only been a friendship. Why wouldn't he let her go for months and months. What's different now?
I'm all shaky and feel weird. I want so desperately to believe, but Jesus we've been through so much and I'm not risking my heart again.
He stopped by for about an hour. D18 expressed her feelings--beautifully--I might add! She was so much more grown up than he was. She said honestly she is sorry that he is so sad, but doesn't trust he will stick around.
There's lots more, but it's all spinning in my head. Felt lured into that Gawd-awful mother role again. Poor wounded baby--let me help. Worked hard and kept my mouth shut, for the most part, while D18 talked. We all were laughing when he left. I said, "Come by anytime! Three women here ready to give you an earful! Have a seat by the fire!"
So effin weird. Not sure if this is worse than the heartbreak? Just so hard to wrap my head around.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
