PMA is a tough and fickle thing sometimes... I know I'm struggling with it MIGHTILY over the last few days.
And being consistently strong... Well, I'm right there with you... tossing pennies into that wishing well...
But I think we're both getting BETTER at being strong. Of course we'll have our moments where our vulnerability takes over, but this whole process is going to help... and our strength will continue to grow.
You know all the mantras: Detach, PMA, no expectations etc etc... They're here for a reason, and we'll do well to remind ourselves of them at every turn.