The crack in my separated life...

[Sweetbriar]

Thank you again Accuray for the wonderful insight! Some of these things I already know but it helps to keep hearing them over and over again. I feel like it would be so much easier if he and OW broke it off, even if he didnt come back. I just hate knowing she is enjoying MY H! But, Is it really the H I knew that she is enjoying of this new person?

I must say, that my D14 told me last night the dad texted her and he isnt able to get a 2nd job for the govt because he already works for govt and it will be conflict of interest. I kinda figured this would be the case, but I was kinda happy. I hate to say that..but I just dont like for things to go his way right now since he has done such harm and hurt to us. I know this is not nice for me to think or say, and Im not that kind of person...but honestly, these are the consequences of leaving.

He asked what she wanted for Christmas so he can start budgeting! Funny, H has NEVER bought them a Christmas gift, ever. I do all the shopping and getting. Its weird to hear him thinking of these things already....He is giving them a $300 budget each..

Im the middle of writing this, I just got a text from H that said that I should be a comedy writer...that my facebook post was funny and I am acting like a victim? First, he doesnt have a facebook so maybe he family said something, and 2nd, it was a motivational quote...nothing bad. I never post anything, so I guess he saw this somehow:( He also texted that he is cutting off my cell phone this minute...so I will have no contact with my kids after school today:(

I just dont get him.. and how is still so mean to me...his PREGNANT WIFE...MOTHER OF HIS KIDS:(