Talked to the friend. He doesn't get me. He said he isn't going because of me and H 's relationship problem. He says he wants to heal H. I tried to say this is not doing good for our M. He agreed it might not. But he said he is going as a friend. And he said he's worried H is going to hit bottum hard and he wants to prevent that. He apparently doesn't get my point of view on this. I felt like he thinks I am wrong. And I couldn't convince him. So. He is going. He said he is not going to talk about R. I can't do anything about him visiting now. I tried. I don't feel too bad. Just lonely and misunderstood if nothing else. I gotta let this go, whatever happens now between them is out of my control.
